When I was a child, I could not understand why people fight and hate each other’s. Why not more goodness exist in the world and they all announced ‘’I am the best. I wanted to know why there is so much hatred in the world. When I grew up I realized that people kill each other’s not only for money or land but also because of beliefs!

I grew up in a Muslim culture, learned all the rules of Islam, I followed rules of five time prayers in a day. I taught to hate others religion as I grow up. I use to believe women who covered themselves were very committed and loving to their religion and happy. But I was wrong.

It has been 12 years since the 9/11, terrorist’s attacks that changed my views about Islam. At the very fast time I realized something was wrong. Islam is not a religion of peace. But it was just a slight ray of light came into my blind mind.

My ex boyfriend was a Muslim. He convinced me that Islam is very peaceful but I realized that Islam created people violent. I started to slowly realize that I was dating a massive manipulator. He always tried to dominate me. In my 22nd birthday he presented me a burka and a hijab !! I was really upset for that. I felt like Islam limited his mind.

Islam brainwash people. Everything in Islam goes against science. Islam is not only a religion it’s an ideology. Islam say’s it a complete code of life that means it control’s every part of life. It is highly impossible to have a stable mindset while raised in that culture. I felt I don’t have a voice in this so-called Islamic culture. It took me a long time to start healing because I had a very strong love for my ex boyfriend.

When I started read the Quran in 2009 I was shocked, I knew why my ex was like that, why are Muslims so aggressive. I felt blood dripping from every verse of Quran. The amount of prejudice and racism in that Islamic culture is incredible. I know for a fact that Muslim’s hates Hindus, Buddhist, christen, Jews and also Shia hate’s Sunnis, Sunni hate’s Shias, with passion and had no idea what the holocaust was. When it became clear to me that there is nothing good in Islam

I had left Islam and I started writings about how my intellectual freedom is met with violence from this Islamic society.

From the beginning of my writings I received lots of threats from Muslim extremists. In 2012, when Malala Yousafzai was shots by the extremist Muslims, I actually felt fear of death. I removed all my writings where my identity was showed.

After that incident every moment I passes with the fear of death. Previous year Islamic extremists murdered Sabeen Mahmud .she knew me very well. I realized Muslim extremist murder any one of us at any time. They want to muzzle our thoughts, our views our voice.

I m against Islam because, Islam says, ‘you are commanded to carry out jihad against the unbelieving infidels until they submit to Islam’.

Christians residing in Islamic countries still pay a heavy price with their lives because they carry the name of Christ as their identity. The Muslim terrorists continue to kill Christians and bomb their churches in Egypt, Syria, Iraq and other Muslim countries. Muslims believe that their faith is the only true faith and non-Muslims are Kafirs who got lost in blasphemies of false religion or God.

The Muslim clerics in madrasah lay emphasis on religious preaching and neglect basic education like Math, Science, etc. In the name of education, most clerics preach about Jihad. Now Jihad actually meant “sacred struggle for the sake of humanity and religion”. But these clerics stated out “Religion means Islam (not humanity)” and “Humanity means Muslim brotherhood.

So basically some of Muslims don’t care even if they die while doing their Jihad because according to Quran Allah has promised an eternal reward for them. Muslims that follow Islam are very faithful towards their religion & they believe that whatever is there in the Quran is for real.

There are potential good people in Islam but the more they are controlled by their faith, the more inhuman they become.

Islam says women should be quite and modest and, modesty is all about how much skin a women cover up. Woman doesn’t get the same opportunity comparing to a men get. Women couldn’t wear certain things because Islam doesn’t support it. When I look throughout the world at Muslim government, I see discrimination against women, discrimination against gays, subjugation of other religious beliefs.

Pakistan had a longstanding tradition of democratic rule. But According to the news sources, there are at least 43 Muslim Fundamentalist group active in Pakistan. They are killing people who against Islamic fundamentalism. Because of the Quran, the hadith, and the sharia law, also, the life of Muhammad influences them to kill us. The moderate Muslim in Pakistan has adopted a role of inaction regarding the issues of the murder and the persecution of progressive people. We can’t make stupid people wise, but we can fight against the ideology.

We can eradicate ideology, but first we must believe that it can be done. I strongly believe to fight Islamic extremism we have to fight this ideology. There is no middle ground.


Ayesha Malik

London, UK